Am i?

Am i really such a lousy person? This questions burns eternally in my mind... having had so many people judge me for who i am , and how well they know me, some tell me that i am not that bad... some tell me that i'm a real asshole and others prefer not to coomment... so how well do peo[;e really know me? why is the human instinct created in such a way that we always judge people by first impressions? hmmm... i believe that is a question only god himself can answer... as for us, the only way we can live with it is eternally wonder if what we are thinking really is the truth or is it all just a facade? Like in a real life "truman show".. hmmm...